Months after ending her 19-year-relationship with Tin Bikic, Jelena Dokic almost jumped off her 26th-floor balcony. As a result of immense suffering she’d been going through, the tennis star tried to commit suicide on April 28th in Melbourne. When she thinks about that day, everything seems blurry and dark.
View this post on Instagram
The former world No.4 has always been open about her depression, anxiety, stress and suicidal thoughts. The strict COVID-19 lockdowns in Australia only worsened her condition and breaking up with the person she had spent her entire adult life with left her traumatized and lost.
“I am going through a very tough period in my life right now and a huge change and I just need some time to recover, heal and process the pain and trauma that I am going through” Dokic said in January when she revealed the breakup.
On Monday, June 13th, Dokic posted a selfie where we can see she’s been constantly crying and gave details about her attempt to take her own life:
The last six months have been tough. It’s been constant crying everywhere. From hiding in the bathroom when at work to wipe away my tears so that nobody sees it to the unstoppable crying at home within my four walls has been unbearable. Constant feelings of sadness and pain are just not going away and my life has been shattered. I blame myself, I don’t think I am worthy of loving and I am scared.
I also know that I still have so many things to be grateful for and then I start to hate myself because by feeling this way I feel like I am not grateful because I mustn’t be since I want to end it all.
Such a vicious cycle in my head.
The result: almost jumping off my 26th floor balcony on April 28th.
Will never forget the day, I just wanted the pain and the suffering to stop. I pulled myself of the edge, don’t even know how I managed to do it. Getting professional help saved my life.
Even though the 39-year-old Dokic is, naturally, still not feeling good, she feels that the process of her recovery has started. “I believe I can go through this,” the 39-year-old stated towards the end of her confession.
Less than a month ago, another Australian WTA player talked about suicide attempt —Destanee Aiava didn’t want to make it to her 22nd birthday and revealed that she wanted to throw herself off a bridge on the night of Easter Sunday, but people that drove by dragged her off the rails.